As with most therapy sessions, or at least what I've gathered from television representations, I should begin... Hi, my name is Tia Bach, and I am an insecure writer. This is my second session and it has been approximately 24 hours (if that) since I had an insecure thought about my writing.
Twenty-four hours may not seem like much, but my feelings about my writing can jump all over the place as represented by this graphic:
|Used with permission from Debbie Ridpath Ohi at Inkygirl.com.|
I'd like to say that each stage is over several hours or days, but sometimes I run through all four emotions in one paragraph. I am a stickler for transition, so I'm usually hardest on my first sentence and my last. Then I fall in love with a sentence toward the middle, and feel earnest affection for the sentence before and after it. Its glow warming those that touch it.
What I've learned most about writing, and being a voracious reader has certainly contributed as well, is that no writing is perfect. There will be days where my inner critic surfaces and likes very little followed by days where I can objectively enjoy my own work. That being said, I think I could edit until the end of days.
At some point, you have to set your work free and know you did the best job possible. The only other choice is to walk away from a project for awhile until you can gain new perspective. I find the only cure for my insecurity is to write, write, write. Get the story down. Then, when I'm feeling confident and determined, I go back and mold and remold the words until I see the piece forming like I imagined.
My mom and I are co-authoring our second book together, the follow up to our award-winning Depression Cookies. I feel confident in the storyline and characters, but I'm harder on myself about the quality. Opening myself up to critique groups, as I reported about in my Writer Rejuvenated post, and sharing my work with fellow writers has really helped me squelch the insecurity monster that's always lurking. I can handle constructive criticism as longs as it's productive and makes my work better in the end.
What helps keep you insecurity monster at bay?
Wednesdays are also designated for A Round of Words in 80 Days (ROW80) updates. I am happy with my goal progress. But to be honest, I've scaled back my goals for summer. My three daughters (12, 10 & 7) go back to school August 27.
Writing: I've spent a minimum of 30 minutes a day on my Depression Cookies follow up since Sunday's check in.
Editing: I spent one hour on editing projects yesterday and have allocated an hour today. With kids home, it's about all I can manage. Actually, my children might call someone soon to counsel me since I lock myself in the office to edit and they can hear me talking to myself (reading pieces out loud).
Blogging: Finally getting back on track for Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Sunday postings. I'm trying to write posts at least a day ahead instead of trying to wring out my brain on post day and force creativity.
Social Media: I'm proud to say I commented on a minimum of 10 ROW80 Sunday posts and at least 10 more blogs since Sunday. The best I've done in weeks.
Reading: A bit of insecurity has surfaced lately because I've read several amazing books (4-5 stars) in a row. Check out my review blog, Mom in Love with Fiction, to add some to your to-be-read list.
I hope you will take a few minutes to visit other Insecure Writers and ROW80 participants. Share the love. It always comes back to you when you do!